Pulls her hair back as she screams....

these words are my diaries screaming outloud

2005-12-13T03:52:08Z

♥ comment to be added ♥

To all DTS sisters

2005-12-13T02:42:13Z

this is the truth.

Lately, so many lies & rumors have been circling around. I'm setting the record straight. This is the Honest to God truth. You will all still believe what you're going to believe, but this is my attempt to set the record straight.

I won't be an active sister next semester. My grades took a dive this semester. DTS isn't the only factor, but my grades were slipping.

I know an awful lot of you are hearing that I won't be in DTS because of Brittany Taylor. That's just ridiculous. Really. You can't always get along with everyone, and my feelings towards her have nothing to do with the sorority.

Another rumor is that I'm leaving dts completely. I'm not. I just need to focus on academics and get my feet on the ground. This semester, there has been drama. We aren't going to deny it. There will always be DTS drama. But I need a break. I am spending next semester on school, because if I don't do well this semester, I'm leaving college. Forever.

I get that people think one incedent factors in on decisions. It doesn't. That isn't why I'm leaving. I made a mistake. I learned who was there for me. I know who means it when they say they love me and who doesn't. I know who will keep their promise to be there for me, no matter what. And, sadly, I know who'll go running.

The bottom line is I'm coming back Fall '06.

that's a promise.

fits me to a T

2005-12-08T06:03:29Z

June,
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite andsoft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the
best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves
to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative.
Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make
friends. Abiding. Able to show character.
Easilyhurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to
dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.
Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-08T00:48:00

2005-12-08T05:53:22Z

I got together with Katie a little while ago.

woot woot McG

It was good to see her :) Glad to get stuff off of my chest.

She's gonna have to visit me EVERY ~~Tuesday~~ THURSDAY to watch The office.

the icon is for you, McG.

with all this static in my head

2005-12-08T04:24:15Z

how do I deal with you
how do i deal with me
when i don't even know myself
or what it is you want from me

I forgot how amazing people from the 717 really are.

Leave it to Stef to put life into perspective. I ♥ you Gwen!

Everytime I try to fly I fall
without my wings I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

one week & then we can have our l o n g talk at Evergreen.

and....when I get Quincy back....the first thing I'm doing is driving. I'm not sure where but far away and isolated.

my "year in review"

2005-12-08T00:21:39Z

Go to your calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that’s your “Year in Review”

January 2005- "I stuck my neck out on the line, I would like it back"

instead of pork & saurkraut, i'm eating tea & toast...yup...migraine again!

February- "But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved"

so...for the first time in forever I fell asleep at around 10 (only on account of my massive migraine) but now it's 3 am, and I'm wired.

March- lift me up in your eyes

Hi KellY! I missed ya ;)

April- girls just want to have fun

what a night!

May- friends only

friends only from now on...times change...people change...we aren't roomates anymore, or friends either..it was a long time coming...bed.

June- no subject

So sorry gang :/ No computer hookup yet....using my stepsister's laptop!

July- you're beautiful the way you are

living off of dreams & spaghetti-0's
wondering where you're life is gonna go

August- all I need is time, a moment that is mine

work wasn't too bad.

September- So is having my dizzle shixxled a good thing or a really bad thing?

i hate math. i really do.

October- late at night when all the world is *S*L*E*E*P*I*N*G I stay up and think of you

I can't sleep. Ugh.It's kinda weird being home....weird and quiet

November- outta bed at the crack of noon

Have I mentioned that I hate math???

December- Wish I could save the world, like I was SUPERGIRL

I took another imitrex (my last one to be exact...) so I'm feeling better.

Yea...so it was basically a year full of migraines. Oy. Not as cool as hazyshadedsky

I want to run through the jungle, the wind in my hair and the sand at my feet

2005-12-07T20:56:36Z

it's so confusing...there's so many rules to be followed

I talked to my mom today. Her foot still hurts & she's bored. I'm excited to get home, because she is stuck all alone, day after day.

I told her about NJCU, and she suggested I finish college @ IUP because of costs. But I told her that mousie962 wanted me to move to LA after college, and she's like "Bye." So I might have to look into that ;)

I haven't heard anything about my car yet....we shall see....if it gets done, I'll be home Thursday afternoon, but if it's still in the shop, I'll be home Friday w/ Brandi.

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-07T03:02:00

2005-12-07T08:08:00Z

Wow.

I'm sitting here, talking with Brandi, eating cookie dough. I ate like, 3 bites and ripped the whole package. Then i proceded to bitch because I don't have anything to put the cookie dough in, and she looks at me, straight faced and suggested I eat it. All of it.

No thanks, Av. I'm not going to spend finals week vomiting. Or gaining 100 lbs.

But through books, she learned a valuable lesson you are not alone in this world

2005-12-07T07:54:09Z

So, I'm reading "The Song Reader" and I found 2 really good quotes.

" It takes guts to go crazy. Most people ignore the wound, put a band-aid over it and forget it. Only gutsy ones can look right at the blood, stare into the pain, & risk losing their minds to know what's what"

"It's kind of strange. Those same words would be ignored if someone tried to say them to you, but when they're in the music it's different. You can't help but open up."

that's deep.

I'm still recalling things you've said to make me feel alright

2005-12-07T04:51:41Z

Keeping my options open.

Actually, I was looking at colleges more tv-writer related. Just in case.

There's even a college in Jersey City.

hmm...

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-06T23:02:00

2005-12-07T04:09:36Z

Did anyone else notice the reddish tint in Casey's hair

:)

could it be?

Thanks, Jess. Now you have me wondering how lickable Chris Meloni is....

I need a vacation.

but her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved....

2005-12-07T02:00:26Z

I'm so ready for break.

I miss my mom. And Rugby. And I even miss my sister a little.

Just let me know if we're going to get together.

*cough* DEE *cough*

stolen from hazyshadedsky

2005-12-06T23:31:46Z

1.Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it?
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word:
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
21. Would you make out with me?

stolen from mousie962

2005-12-06T21:49:32Z

Pick out your 20-25 favorite songs. Pick out a line from each (try not to use the chorus or title of the song). List them and see if people on your friends list can guess them. Once one is guessed correctly, strike it out.

I copied off Jess even more...these aren't my 'favorite' songs....just the ones I thought of

1. ~~movin' all around the room, chicka chicka boom boom~~
"Naked in my bed" by Freekin' A (catgirl313

2. ~~I can't help you fix yourself, but at least I can say I tried~~
Scars by Papa Roach (tragicdiscovery)

3. what am I feeling what am I doing wrong?

4. tomorrow's just another day, another way to spend my day all by myself
Tomorrow by Lillix (emilycorr)

5. ~~and no matter what i do i feel the same with or without you~~
Tearin' up my Heart- *Nsync (tragicdiscovery)

6. ~~my automobile is a piece of crap, my fashion sense is whack~~
Beverly Hills by Weezer (tragicdiscovery)

7. ~~but her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved~~
Concrete Angel By Martina McBride (emilycorr)

8. you left a broken record that's been skippin' in my head

9. ~~would he walk on water, would he run through fire~~
Measure of a Man by Clay Aiken (bellacantante85)

10. ~~when you say you love me, do you mean it? when you hold me, can you feel it?~~
When you say you love me By Clay Aiken (bellacantante85)

11. ~~every kiss is a kiss you can never get back~~
this is the night by Clay Aiken (bellacantante85)

12. why no one will help me I'm too dumb I'm too smart

13. wish i could save the world, like I was supergirl

14. figuring out just what love means

15. can't go on not loving you

16. ~~i shake it like jello make the boys say hello~~
1,2 Step By Ciara (lj user="naomikitten">)

17. and it felt like church bells, or the whistle of a train on a summer evening. I want to meet you somewhere, barely breathing

18. ~~take the bottle, break it up~~
Pour some Sugar on Me By Def Leppard (bellacantante85)

19. ~~i just heard you sigh, lean into my kiss and close those deep blue need you eyes~~
Must Be doin something right by Billy Currington (bellacantante85)

20. ~~she pulls her hair back as she screams, "I don't really want to be the queen"~~
Meet Virginia by Train (piekid)

21. ~~the innocence can never last~~
Wake me up when September ends by Green Day (tragicdiscovery)

22. ~~tell me more tell me more like does he have a car?~~
summer lovin' from Grease (hazyshadedsky

23. ~~I almost fell into the hole in your life~~
Black Balloons by Goo Goo Dolls ([Unknown LJ tag])

24. ~~then why do these tears come at night~~
Lucky by Britney Spears (tragicdiscovery)

25. I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-06T15:05:00

2005-12-06T20:09:21Z

Alex is back!

I'm excited to see "conviction" AHAHA...and apparently, it's more character based, so we might learn lots more about Alex ;)

I wrote to Kathryn Erbe last night, just like audragoren

It's SVU night! And...in one week, we're having a little coyote-gift giving celebration :)

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-05T23:37:00

2005-12-06T04:43:38Z

I finally finished my 6 page paper.

And, I bought a cordless mouse. For the 4th time this year, I ripped the cord out of the back of the computer, so it was a wise investment.

My car goes into teh shop tomorrow, which is exciting. And I'm *hoping* it hurries up & gets done, that way I can drive myself home for Christmas break.

of course, it would be nice to be able to just drive off for a day or two. I could use some quality alone time.

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-03T12:00:00

2005-12-03T17:04:09Z

FORMAL TONIGHT!

haha...there'ssomething so freekin' great about emergency exec board meetings. Even though I can't make it, according to Amy, they're going to discuss the fact that Brandi & Brittany have done everything. There is justice in the world.

I'm anxious to see if sisters weren't allowed to go to formal because of hours too...seems like lots of girls have let things slip....

oh, mousie962 you're letter is in the mail

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-12-01T23:12:00

2005-12-02T04:20:08Z

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad -- BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

get d o w n girl don't hate get d o w n

2005-12-01T21:29:43Z

Gave blood today :)

Yup...that was pretty much it.

-♥-

Wish I could save the world....like I was SUPERGIRL.....

2005-12-01T05:38:58Z

I took another imitrex (my last one to be exact...) so I'm feeling better.

I ate lunch today with Bib, Mamma La, Sister Mary Helen & Amy Owens. Good times there. Then I covered the HUB table because no one else wants to do it (and that was directed more at the Red Cross Club members who were a no-show, not DTS.)

Janelle & I went shopping....I got shoes & a clutch for formal (Saturday=expect pictures)and I bought myself some new undies & comfy sweats....

Finally, we went to Eat & Park, and the service was horrible! There was hair in our food, our server gave us the wrong drinks, we weren't offered dessert, she didn't ask if our food was alright. It was so bad we just walked out. Yup, we didn't pay. We're evil. But, had she asked us or gotten the manager, this could have been solved.

I don't understand how she could bring a new plate of hair-less food, and not notify the manager. WTF?!?!?!

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-11-30T22:33:00

2005-12-01T03:37:24Z

Congrats Mariska.

That's all I've got.

Actually, there's a long entry coming up....but today was too long (and too amazing) adn I'm tired and I have a headache.

But I promise, you shall get details.

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-11-29T21:00:00

2005-11-30T02:03:14Z

thanks, Amy Owens.

I meant to say I'm now a comm media major. Instead, I said I'm not a comm media major.

Big difference.

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-11-29T18:22:00

2005-11-29T23:38:43Z

Today was a double good day.

Of course, it's Amy Owen's 20th Birthday!!!, not to mention SVU night.

My back felt better today, which was a plus. I had lunch with Janelle, Amy Owens, Tiffany, Benson and Perry, which was loads of fun. I ♥ those kids.

Then....I got the mail. Not only did I get my loan refund check, but my change of major form was approved. I'm not a comm media major!!!

twirliebug2004 @ 2005-11-29T00:12:00

2005-11-29T05:23:15Z

Been a while...

I hurt my back :( It's really sore & knotted. Not good.

Happy 20th birthday, Amy Owens

I scheduled for my classes.

Not too much else.

stolen from audragoren, she's so much cooler than I am...

2005-11-27T23:06:00Z

1. Your name spelled backward? edaj

2. Last incoming call on your phone? Amy Owens

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? pictures

4. What's your favorite restaurant? Red Lobster or Chinese Buffets

5. Last time you swam in a pool? Golly....last fall, at Zinc

6. Have you ever been in a school play? I was the letter V in 2nd grade, a flower in kindergarten, and in the chorus in 7th grade

7. How many kids do you want? one if I'm single, more if I'm married

8. Type of music you dislike most? I don't really dislike any music...

9. Are you registered to vote? Yes

10. Do you have cable? Yup.

11. Have you ever ridden on a mo-ped? No

12. Ever made a prank phone call? it's on my list of things to do before I die, just haven't gotten there yet...

13. Boyfriend/Girlfriend? no and it makes me sad

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? In a heartbeat

15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Canada

16. Do you have a garden? No

17. What's your favorite comic strip? I'm not big on Comic Strips

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? I think so, but probably not....I always mix up lyrics...

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? night

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? I haven't been to the movies in the past month

21. Favorite pizza toppings? onions & pepperoni

22. Chips or popcorn? popcorn, Brandi-style

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear? none

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? no

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? nope

26. Orange Juice or apple? apple juice

27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with? Amy Owens, Tiffany & Tiffany's parents

28. Favorite type chocolate bar? milky way

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls? the presidential election.

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Aren't all tomatoes grown in someone's back yard?

31. Have you ever won a trophy? yes

32. Are you a good cook? NOT AT ALL

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? yes

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial? No

35. Sprite or 7-Up? Neither. neither...unless your mixing it with Hurricane

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? Yes

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens? I've never been in a Walgreens

38. Ever thrown up in public? Yes...I vomit quite often

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? eh....money....I'd rather be able to afford tuition

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? yup

41. Can ex's be just friends? highly unlikely

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? Brandi....but usually people are visiting ME....lol...

43. Did you have a lot of hair as a young kid? Yes

44. What message is on your answering machine? voicemail? the automated one

45. Where would you like to go right now? NYC...where else?

46. What was the name of you first pet? Splash

47. what kind of back pack do you have, and whats in it? a *corderoy* messanger bag (yea...laugh it up P'Owed. I love cordoroy.)

48. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? Either Perry or Chris

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today? friends ♥

50. What do you think about most people? I always think people don't like me....I get really paranoid & weird....